Stacey Apondi: I was a danger to myself mentally and psychologically

Article by Stacey Apondi

It’s been the toughest three months of my life! I am a victim of depression and anxiety, and I’m not ashamed to say that I’m still dealing with anxiety as much as sometimes I would like to think that I’m not depressed!

4th February 2022 was the first time I heard of the word PCOS, and from then on I have not quite been the same.

They say everyone has a breaking point. This was mine.

The first month of my diagnosis was a torrid time. Seven days of heavy flooding and intense side effects. This was quite alarming, hence I decided to visit a gynecologist.

“Are you planning to have children…?” the gynecologist asked on pins and needles waiting for my response. “Yes, but not now, maybe in the future. I’m still young!” I managed to respond with a grin. “Why?” I asked. There was silence followed by a sorry look then he finally managed to spit the words out, “We will monitor…” He said. “You may be suffering from a condition known as PCOS.” He gave me a tragic stare and I knew right then that something was not right.

PCOS; Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome is a hormonal disorder that causes the ovaries to enlarge with small cysts on the outer edges. Its cause is not clear but may be a combination of genetics and environmental factors. Symptoms include menstrual irregularities, acne, obesity, excess hair loss, high levels of insulin, and polycystic appearing ovaries. Side effects include the risk of infertility as it impacts your body’s ability to ovulate which may result in an irregular fertility window. This information is sourced directly from Google after the doctor’s advice to ‘inquire more about PCOS on Google’!

It was quite clear now, I was “unique” as I preferred to put it. My flows were irregular and for the better part of my first trimester, I never knew how it felt like to not soil my dress when it was that time of the month. I was famous to my lab teacher who would always offer an extra uniform. He, yes he, was the first to point out that something was wrong.

Bringing this to my attention, he advised me to inform my parents, and true to his hunch, I had abnormal menstrual periods. A condition, I recently found out, is called Menorrhagia. A medical term for abnormal/irregular heavy and prolonged periods.

From then on, it was one condition to another. I developed anemia, and early 2019, I was diagnosed with cysts.

To cut the long story short, it all made sense, irregular periods, cysts, and now PCOS.

Back to the gynecologist, he instructed the nurse to administer an injection to immediately stop my flow. He then prescribed tablets; which act as birth control pills, taken for 21 days and in the case of PCOS, help in the regulation of menstrual periods and decrease the risk of ovarian cysts.

What followed was a series of aftereffects from taking the prescribed tablets that caught me off guard. There was a sudden appearance of blackheads all over my face; my skin was dry and peeling. At times, I felt nauseous and at the end of a working day, my feet would swell. Soon I became more anxious than usual and my moods would be all over the place.

I could only take so much. You see, I had barely recovered from the astonishing news of my condition that could render me unworthy to be called a mother. This is the only cloud on the horizon for me, the thought of not being able to bear my children. The concept of being barren. A thought that makes my stomach churn.

At this point, I didn’t want to be strong. I wanted to fade away and drown in my misery. I needed someone to be there desperately. I was a danger to myself mentally and psychologically. It was necessary that for a change, I stop being strong. I was a lot even for myself.

As a young lady living with PCOS, I feel that, as women, we were taught the bare minimum in regards to our bodies and the challenges that come with womanhood. There are so many women struggling with different conditions that they were never quite prepared for. As a result, we end up being misdiagnosed or sometimes learn of a condition too late to manage.

More insight into our complex being is needed. I believe this will help us not only understand our bodies better but also work towards prevention rather than cure.

And for those who are facing underlying conditions like myself, whether it’s cysts, fibroids, PCOS, and so on, a reminder that you are strong enough to beat this. It is in the journey that one gains strength. I can attest to this, indeed I am strong than I was three months ago and my gratitude goes to those who stood by me during this time and continue to support and encourage me.

SOURCEStacey Apondi
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  1. Sorry for what you went through my dear, and thanks for sharing your story it is really of great help to someone going through the same thing and maybe they have not come out because they fear that they are alone in this.
    My encouragement to you is that you keep on going, all is well.

  2. Sorry for what you went through my dear, and thanks for sharing your story it is really of great help to someone going through the same thing and maybe they have not come out because they fear that they are alone in this.
    My encouragement to you is that you keep on going, all is well.

  3. Amazing article piece. Thankyou fr the insights. I believe many women go through a lot of stuff not knowing the seriousness of the issues they face. Good job.

  4. You strong girl,its very true,womanhood has been underrated for the longest period and this kind of revelation brings more insight to womanhood and what it means to be a lady.

  5. Your strength and courage is admirable. Thank you for sharing this with us as it gives us women more strength and courage to speak up. All will be well dear.

  6. Your strength and courage is really admirable. Thank you for sharing this part of your life with us as it gives other women strength and courage to speak up too. All will be well dear❤️

  7. Good read, professionally written. A problem shared is half solved. PCOS cam be managed and you can have children. I wish you well.

  8. Sorry for what you are going through. I know it must be difficult to share with people but you were brave enough to share your story, as women you go through alot but I pray you get well soon.

    Warmest wishes for a speedy recovery.

  9. Thank you for sharing this story with us and sorry for what uv been through.this article will surely benefit many people facing the same.

  10. Thanks for sharing dear.
    Sorry for what you went through and I’m so proud of you for being bold to share this with us.
    You’ve helped many

  11. All will be well love,
    Am proud of you keep writing good things are coming your way.

    Just reminded me of teacher paul😊 he would be very proud

  12. Had missed your amazing articles ,and I’m truly sorry for what you’ve been going through.Sharing will also encourage many women out there who cannot speak up or even seek medical help

  13. First off, congratulations on this post. Such a nice read!
    You are & have been so brave❤️
    Proverbs 23:18
    18 Surely there is a future,
    and your hope will not be cut off.
    He is a good God!! He got you.


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